I'll admit that I've fallen out of the blogging habit a bit this year, and once I'm back from vacation at the beginning of October, I hope to start posting weekly updates again. One of the toughest parts of blogging about a chronic illness is that chronic illness often gets in the way. My Migraines in particular often limit the time I can spend on the computer. I did want to take a few minutes today and post links to two very important blog posts and ask that you check them out.
The first is an excellent interview of Cindy McCain by Teri Robert. Cindy recently came out of the Migraine closet and has become an advocate for all Migraineurs. She recently appeared on the Today show, and Teri had the chance to interview her as well.
Teri's interview: Interview with Cindy McCain, Migraine Sufferer, Advocate
The second is a petition put together by the American Pain Foundation asking the FDA to consider educating consumers about the risks of acetaminophen, rather than strict regulation. Diana Lee wrote an excellent blog post about the petition. If you agree with the APF's stance, please take a minute to sign the petition before this Sunday, September 27.
Diana's post: FDA Ban on Prescription Pain Meds: Take Action Now
APF petition: Acetaminophen: Educate, Do Not Regulate
Be well,
MJ
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
30 things about my invisible illness you may not know
The wonderful Teri Robert of MyMigraineConnection had recently posted this on her blog, From Teri's Keyboard, and asked me to participate.
I'll quote Teri's post here to better explain this meme:
Without further ado...
1. The illness I live with is: Migraine disease (including Transformed Migraine, Chronic Migraine, Migraine Without Aura and Acephalgic Migraine), Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, along with gluten intolerance, many food sensitivities, seasonal/environmental allergies and Asthma. I also struggle with depression and anxiety. For the purposes of this meme, I will mainly focus on the head pain issues.
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2003 (Migraine) & 2009 (IIH).
3. But I had symptoms since: at least my early teen years.
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: slowing down and learning to modify my goals (both short- and long-term). I've had to learn just what is realistic with my current limitations.
5. Most people assume: that I'm healthy, especially because of my recent weight loss (75 pounds since January 2008). It's hard for them to believe that I'm sick when I look so healthy on the outside.
6. The hardest part about mornings is: getting going. Mornings are the toughest part of my day and the time I generally feel the worst. Pushing through that initial crappiness can be very hard.
7. My favorite medical TV show is: House and Royal Pains.
8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: my laptop. My cell phone is a close second.
9. The hardest part about nights is: going to bed on time. I'm a night owl by nature, but my Migraine disease requires that I get the right amount of sleep every night. It's difficult to make myself go to bed sometimes, and occasional insomnia and/or anxiety don't help with good sleep hygiene.
10. Each day I take 19 pills & vitamins.
11. Regarding alternative treatments I: currently do massage therapy and relaxation exercises. In the past I've done acupuncture and biofeedback. This fall I plan to try mindfulness meditation, as well as get back into Nia dance and maybe try tai chi/qigong.
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: visible. It's unspeakably hard to feel like I have to prove to others that I'm sick.
13. Regarding working and career: I was laid off from my full-time job in an architecture firm in November 2008. In March of this year, I began working part-time as a hair salon receptionist, and this week I've begun a second job as a medical receptionist, also part-time. I'm not sure if I'm healthy enough to go back to full-time work, especially in an office environment. DF and I have broad future plans to start our own business, but that's quite a ways down the road. I feel very frustrated that I've had to put many career plans on hold (like licensing exams and graduate school) because of my health.
14. People would be surprised to know: that I am in some type of pain every moment of every day. The pain never, ever goes away.
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: limitations. I'm an overachiever by nature, someone who pushes through "anything" to accomplish my goals. I've now learned that I have to respect the limitations of my health.
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: blog about it, and reach out to the vibrant online chronic illness community.
17. The commercials about my illness: maddening. I tell DF that Excedrin ads are more likely to trigger a Migraine than the drug would be to stop one.
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: spending time out of the house with my friends.
19. It was really hard to have to give up: pushing myself "no matter what". I've had to learn to stop when my body says so.
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: knitting/crochet.
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: have a picnic on a sailboat with DF, without having to worry about the sun, myriad potential triggers or my proximity to a bathroom.
22. My illness has taught me: to say no.
23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: "I've heard that __ fixes Migraines, you should try it." Trust me, I already have. I know you may mean well, but I would rather do without the unsolicited advice.
24. But I love it when people: show compassion or honestly want to know more about my illnesses.
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: "There are times in life when we can nurture our talents and watch them grow. But there are also times in life when we can do no more than protect them to get through the day-to-day, until we have the opportunity for nurturing again." (paraphrased) from the former honors director at my alma mater. He and I were discussing my worries about the effects of my health on my semester's work.
26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: the most important thing you can do as a patient is educate yourself and ask as many questions as you need to understand.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: how much space it takes up in my life, and how every minor decision becomes a major choice.
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: when DF took care of me after my lumbar puncture when I had a spinal headache. In addition to everything he normally does for me, he went so far as to empty a trash can I had vomited in when I couldn't walk to the toilet.
29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: the only way to increase awareness of our illnesses is to speak out.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: that one day, there will be more understanding of the struggles that chronic illness patients face.
If you blog, or even if you just Facebook, I ask that you please consider posting this meme with your own answers.
Be well,
MJ
I'll quote Teri's post here to better explain this meme:
Anyone who has Migraine disease or another headache disorder knows what it's like to live with an invisible illness. People can't see our illness. There are no outward signs. No physical scars, canes, wheel chairs, or any of the other outward signs that can alert people that a person is living with an illness.
Invisible illnesses are easy for "healthy" people to ignore. Unfortunately, so are the difficulties of those who live with these diseases. This adds to the burden of disease and makes lives even more difficult.
Each year, National Invisible Chronic Illness Awareness Week is observed to educate the public and raise awareness about invisible illnesses. One of the blogging activities this year is a "meme," 30 Things About My Invisible Illness You May Not Know.
Without further ado...
1. The illness I live with is: Migraine disease (including Transformed Migraine, Chronic Migraine, Migraine Without Aura and Acephalgic Migraine), Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, along with gluten intolerance, many food sensitivities, seasonal/environmental allergies and Asthma. I also struggle with depression and anxiety. For the purposes of this meme, I will mainly focus on the head pain issues.
2. I was diagnosed with it in the year: 2003 (Migraine) & 2009 (IIH).
3. But I had symptoms since: at least my early teen years.
4. The biggest adjustment I’ve had to make is: slowing down and learning to modify my goals (both short- and long-term). I've had to learn just what is realistic with my current limitations.
5. Most people assume: that I'm healthy, especially because of my recent weight loss (75 pounds since January 2008). It's hard for them to believe that I'm sick when I look so healthy on the outside.
6. The hardest part about mornings is: getting going. Mornings are the toughest part of my day and the time I generally feel the worst. Pushing through that initial crappiness can be very hard.
7. My favorite medical TV show is: House and Royal Pains.
8. A gadget I couldn’t live without is: my laptop. My cell phone is a close second.
9. The hardest part about nights is: going to bed on time. I'm a night owl by nature, but my Migraine disease requires that I get the right amount of sleep every night. It's difficult to make myself go to bed sometimes, and occasional insomnia and/or anxiety don't help with good sleep hygiene.
10. Each day I take 19 pills & vitamins.
11. Regarding alternative treatments I: currently do massage therapy and relaxation exercises. In the past I've done acupuncture and biofeedback. This fall I plan to try mindfulness meditation, as well as get back into Nia dance and maybe try tai chi/qigong.
12. If I had to choose between an invisible illness or visible I would choose: visible. It's unspeakably hard to feel like I have to prove to others that I'm sick.
13. Regarding working and career: I was laid off from my full-time job in an architecture firm in November 2008. In March of this year, I began working part-time as a hair salon receptionist, and this week I've begun a second job as a medical receptionist, also part-time. I'm not sure if I'm healthy enough to go back to full-time work, especially in an office environment. DF and I have broad future plans to start our own business, but that's quite a ways down the road. I feel very frustrated that I've had to put many career plans on hold (like licensing exams and graduate school) because of my health.
14. People would be surprised to know: that I am in some type of pain every moment of every day. The pain never, ever goes away.
15. The hardest thing to accept about my new reality has been: limitations. I'm an overachiever by nature, someone who pushes through "anything" to accomplish my goals. I've now learned that I have to respect the limitations of my health.
16. Something I never thought I could do with my illness that I did was: blog about it, and reach out to the vibrant online chronic illness community.
17. The commercials about my illness: maddening. I tell DF that Excedrin ads are more likely to trigger a Migraine than the drug would be to stop one.
18. Something I really miss doing since I was diagnosed is: spending time out of the house with my friends.
19. It was really hard to have to give up: pushing myself "no matter what". I've had to learn to stop when my body says so.
20. A new hobby I have taken up since my diagnosis is: knitting/crochet.
21. If I could have one day of feeling normal again I would: have a picnic on a sailboat with DF, without having to worry about the sun, myriad potential triggers or my proximity to a bathroom.
22. My illness has taught me: to say no.
23. Want to know a secret? One thing people say that gets under my skin is: "I've heard that __ fixes Migraines, you should try it." Trust me, I already have. I know you may mean well, but I would rather do without the unsolicited advice.
24. But I love it when people: show compassion or honestly want to know more about my illnesses.
25. My favorite motto, scripture, quote that gets me through tough times is: "There are times in life when we can nurture our talents and watch them grow. But there are also times in life when we can do no more than protect them to get through the day-to-day, until we have the opportunity for nurturing again." (paraphrased) from the former honors director at my alma mater. He and I were discussing my worries about the effects of my health on my semester's work.
26. When someone is diagnosed I’d like to tell them: the most important thing you can do as a patient is educate yourself and ask as many questions as you need to understand.
27. Something that has surprised me about living with an illness is: how much space it takes up in my life, and how every minor decision becomes a major choice.
28. The nicest thing someone did for me when I wasn’t feeling well was: when DF took care of me after my lumbar puncture when I had a spinal headache. In addition to everything he normally does for me, he went so far as to empty a trash can I had vomited in when I couldn't walk to the toilet.
29. I’m involved with Invisible Illness Week because: the only way to increase awareness of our illnesses is to speak out.
30. The fact that you read this list makes me feel: that one day, there will be more understanding of the struggles that chronic illness patients face.
If you blog, or even if you just Facebook, I ask that you please consider posting this meme with your own answers.
Be well,
MJ
Sunday, August 16, 2009
photophobia
Eyes open too wide
Bright burning sun, eyes closed, seeing red
Colors bleached out, muted
Sandy eyes, dry, bloodshot
Pupils confused
Pain lurking behind eyelashes
Facial tension
Skin too tight, fragile skull
Crows clawing eyes
Migraine
Frying my brain
Bright burning sun, eyes closed, seeing red
Colors bleached out, muted
Sandy eyes, dry, bloodshot
Pupils confused
Pain lurking behind eyelashes
Facial tension
Skin too tight, fragile skull
Crows clawing eyes
Migraine
Frying my brain
Monday, August 10, 2009
radio silence | part 1: another acronym, another diagnosis
Well, hello there, everyone. I'm hoping to get back into more regular updates, and in the meantime, I hope to catch you up a bit on what's been happening in my corner of the world.
When I saw Dr E in February, he prescribed a low dose of Celexa (citalopram) to help with the anxiety and depression I was dealing with because of life stressors (namely, unemployment) and my health. Celexa is also used as a Migraine preventive, so we were hoping it would help in the head pain arena, as well. I spent a few weeks trying to gather my courage enough to swallow that first pill, and in the meantime, found a part-time job, so I never did try it.
During my follow-up visit with Dr E in April, he asked me where I wanted to go with my treatment. I had seen some success with Dr P, and obviously I was feeling skittish about trying new prescription drugs. So I brought up an issue that had been simmering in the back of my mind for over a year - are my vague symptoms actually due to Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension? I certainly have at least mild head pain every day, with dizziness; as well as unexplained Migraine attacks, nausea, shoulder and neck pain, and tinnitus. Dr E and I had discussed this when I first saw him in 2008, and we had decided to try a few other treatment ideas first before further exploring IIH.
When I brought up IIH again, Dr E agreed that we had come to a point in my treatment where it made sense to test for it. He scheduled me for a lumbar puncture at the end of April. The procedure itself was fairly straightforward (though massively anxiety-producing) and I found out that my pressure is higher than normal. I ended up with a truly terrible spinal headache after the LP that left me completely bed-bound for a week, but I was able to get a blood patch to treat the headache.
While I'm certainly not happy to have another thing wrong with me, getting diagnosed with IIH has opened up my treatment options. Dr E prescribed me a very low dose of Diamox (acetazolamide) to reduce my spinal fluid pressure. I've been taking it since May, and just increased my dose a month ago, and I'm already seeing some positive effects. I'm tolerating it better than the other prescription preventives I've tried, so all in all, the LP was worth it.
I still have a long way to go in finding an effective treatment regimen, but adding the Diamox to treat my IIH has been an important step. I'm having less overall head pain, fewer Migraines and less severe Migraines. Every little bit helps, so I'm glad I followed my instincts and discussed IIH with Dr E.
More to come...
Be well,
MJ
When I saw Dr E in February, he prescribed a low dose of Celexa (citalopram) to help with the anxiety and depression I was dealing with because of life stressors (namely, unemployment) and my health. Celexa is also used as a Migraine preventive, so we were hoping it would help in the head pain arena, as well. I spent a few weeks trying to gather my courage enough to swallow that first pill, and in the meantime, found a part-time job, so I never did try it.
During my follow-up visit with Dr E in April, he asked me where I wanted to go with my treatment. I had seen some success with Dr P, and obviously I was feeling skittish about trying new prescription drugs. So I brought up an issue that had been simmering in the back of my mind for over a year - are my vague symptoms actually due to Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension? I certainly have at least mild head pain every day, with dizziness; as well as unexplained Migraine attacks, nausea, shoulder and neck pain, and tinnitus. Dr E and I had discussed this when I first saw him in 2008, and we had decided to try a few other treatment ideas first before further exploring IIH.
When I brought up IIH again, Dr E agreed that we had come to a point in my treatment where it made sense to test for it. He scheduled me for a lumbar puncture at the end of April. The procedure itself was fairly straightforward (though massively anxiety-producing) and I found out that my pressure is higher than normal. I ended up with a truly terrible spinal headache after the LP that left me completely bed-bound for a week, but I was able to get a blood patch to treat the headache.
While I'm certainly not happy to have another thing wrong with me, getting diagnosed with IIH has opened up my treatment options. Dr E prescribed me a very low dose of Diamox (acetazolamide) to reduce my spinal fluid pressure. I've been taking it since May, and just increased my dose a month ago, and I'm already seeing some positive effects. I'm tolerating it better than the other prescription preventives I've tried, so all in all, the LP was worth it.
I still have a long way to go in finding an effective treatment regimen, but adding the Diamox to treat my IIH has been an important step. I'm having less overall head pain, fewer Migraines and less severe Migraines. Every little bit helps, so I'm glad I followed my instincts and discussed IIH with Dr E.
More to come...
Be well,
MJ
Saturday, April 4, 2009
book review: The Migraine Brain
I recently read The Migraine Brain: Your Breakthrough Guide to Fewer Headaches, Better Health, by Carolyn Bernstein, MD, and Elaine McArdle. I published a review of it over on MyMigraineConnection, which you can find here.
If anyone else has read this book, I'd love to hear your comments either here or at the review itself.
Be well,
MJ
If anyone else has read this book, I'd love to hear your comments either here or at the review itself.
Be well,
MJ
Saturday, March 14, 2009
scars, pain and understanding
I had an interesting conversation with a friend, B, tonight. Without sharing too many of her personal details, she's in the middle of seeking a diagnosis for abdominal pain, originally related to ovarian cysts and now possibly an infection.
I've been friends with B since college, though we haven't necessarily been close. Last year, during a trip back east, I opened up to her some about my daily struggles. She had no idea I had continual head pain and live such a regimented life. At the time, I was still very sick - my head pain was never below a 4/10 and my Migraines turned severe (7+) several times a week. Add the melange of daily symptoms, and I was in very sad shape.
B remembered that conversation from last year, so she sought me out tonight to share her story and her struggles. It was very touching and heart-wrenching at the same time. It seems that much of her trouble is at least partially due to being brushed off by her doctors (a familiar story to many of us).
Probably the most amazing part of the conversation is how many of her words mirrored my very same feelings from last year. She's dealing with a lot of anger right now, reminding me of my own anger I'm finally letting go of. I remember how overwhelming the anger would be sometimes, borne out of an inescapable frustration with my debilitating pain. I was angry with everyone around me, especially those without chronic pain who couldn't possibly understand what I was going through. Mostly I was angry that there was no "fix" for my chronic pain, and I could only hope to manage it for the rest of my life.
It's only in the last few months that things have begun to turn around. My treatment regimen, coupled with a lot less stress, is finally working. Getting rid of three major stressors in my life (found a part-time job, finished moving to our new apartment and sold my car) has significantly improved my health. I'm still not where I want to be, but I'm much closer than I was last fall.
I couldn't really give B any answers, but I could offer her some hope and support. I pointed her toward a number of resources on the web. I shared some more of my story that I hadn't told her before. But, most importantly, I offered her compassion and understanding, something I've found in abundance here in the online chronic illness community.
My talk with B was a strong reminder that at any time, any one of us can cross from the world of the healthy into that of the sick. But it's also a reminder that we can manage to find our way back among the healthy, even if we bear the scars of the journey.
Side note: if any of you have suggestions for resources for female reproductive disorders and related pain, please leave them here in the comments so I can pass them along to B.
Be well,
MJ
I've been friends with B since college, though we haven't necessarily been close. Last year, during a trip back east, I opened up to her some about my daily struggles. She had no idea I had continual head pain and live such a regimented life. At the time, I was still very sick - my head pain was never below a 4/10 and my Migraines turned severe (7+) several times a week. Add the melange of daily symptoms, and I was in very sad shape.
B remembered that conversation from last year, so she sought me out tonight to share her story and her struggles. It was very touching and heart-wrenching at the same time. It seems that much of her trouble is at least partially due to being brushed off by her doctors (a familiar story to many of us).
Probably the most amazing part of the conversation is how many of her words mirrored my very same feelings from last year. She's dealing with a lot of anger right now, reminding me of my own anger I'm finally letting go of. I remember how overwhelming the anger would be sometimes, borne out of an inescapable frustration with my debilitating pain. I was angry with everyone around me, especially those without chronic pain who couldn't possibly understand what I was going through. Mostly I was angry that there was no "fix" for my chronic pain, and I could only hope to manage it for the rest of my life.
It's only in the last few months that things have begun to turn around. My treatment regimen, coupled with a lot less stress, is finally working. Getting rid of three major stressors in my life (found a part-time job, finished moving to our new apartment and sold my car) has significantly improved my health. I'm still not where I want to be, but I'm much closer than I was last fall.
I couldn't really give B any answers, but I could offer her some hope and support. I pointed her toward a number of resources on the web. I shared some more of my story that I hadn't told her before. But, most importantly, I offered her compassion and understanding, something I've found in abundance here in the online chronic illness community.
My talk with B was a strong reminder that at any time, any one of us can cross from the world of the healthy into that of the sick. But it's also a reminder that we can manage to find our way back among the healthy, even if we bear the scars of the journey.
Side note: if any of you have suggestions for resources for female reproductive disorders and related pain, please leave them here in the comments so I can pass them along to B.
Be well,
MJ
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
it's time to take action - TODAY!
As I posted earlier, the AHDA lobbied Washington DC last week to raise awareness of the lack of funding for Migraine and headache disorders. The time has come for us to email our representatives.
I just finished sending my email. Including writing my personal story, it took less than 10 minutes for me to advocate on behalf of the millions of us suffering with head pain.
This is what I wrote:
Just remember, if we don't speak up for ourselves, who will?
More information about the AHDA.
More information about Headache on the Hill from Teri Robert.
Email your representative here.
Be well,
MJ
I just finished sending my email. Including writing my personal story, it took less than 10 minutes for me to advocate on behalf of the millions of us suffering with head pain.
This is what I wrote:
At only 25 years old, I am both a chronic daily headache and chronic migraine sufferer. I have head pain every moment of every day. This constant, continual pain has made it indescribably difficult to function in the world for the past several years. Because of various migraine triggers, I am unable to shop in most stores, eat at most restaurants and work at many types of jobs. In fact, having recently lost my steady job at an architecture firm due to the economy, I've been having incredible difficulty not only finding any job, but finding one I am physically capable of performing.Now it's your turn. Go to the AHDA's website and follow the links to email your own representative of the House. It's free, it's easy and it will help the millions of us who will benefit from increased NIH funding.
I am only one of 36 million migraine sufferers, but I am one of the more severe cases. I, along with millions of other Americans, desperately need an effective treatment so we can continue to contribute to our country. I have already tried almost a dozen different migraine preventives available on the market. None of these medications were specifically developed for migraine; all are "hand-me-downs" developed for other diseases. None of these drugs have worked. Without NIH-funded research, I have no hope of ever trying a treatment developed specifically for my condition. Instead, I will rely on anti-seizure, anti-depressant, blood pressure or anti-psychotic drugs, hoping one will work for me.
Just remember, if we don't speak up for ourselves, who will?
More information about the AHDA.
More information about Headache on the Hill from Teri Robert.
Email your representative here.
Be well,
MJ
Monday, February 16, 2009
action alert: headache on the hill
It's no secret to headache and Migraine patients that we are in desperate need of more funding through the NIH for head pain research. Last year, the Alliance for Headache Disorders Advocacy (AHDA) was formed to address this lack of funding. One of the ADHA's primary advocacy efforts is Headache on the Hill (HOH), a two-day lobbying effort with the US Congress.From the AHDA's website:
The long-term goal of the Alliance for Headache Disorders Advocacy is to provide equitable NIH funding for research on headache disorders. ... We are building on the legislative progress that began with the first HOH in September 2007 and resulted in language in the recent US Senate Appropriations Committee Report strongly urging increased NIH attention to headache disorders. If we are to realize these necessary changes in NIH funding, we must continue to make our issue heard before Congress.
So, what can you do to help? It's very simple - go to the AHDA's website and sign up for email alerts. Next week during HOH, the AHDA email Action Alerts letting us know it's time to send emails to our representatives. The AHDA will provide basic letters to send and even let us know who our individual representatives are. All we'll have to do is personalize the letters and send, which can be done in less than 10 minutes.
Last year, the AHDA had some clear victories after their lobbying efforts. Teri Robert of My Migraine Connection writes,
We know that the emails prompted by AHDA action alerts last spring had clear, positive consequences. They led to led to the adoption of the House and Senate report language that the NIH is currently responding to.
Please sign up for these email Action Alerts. It won't cost you anything other than a few minutes of your time, and can greatly help all of us in the head pain community.
More information about the AHDA.
More information about HOH from Teri Robert.
Sign up for the AHDA's email alerts.
Be well,
MJ
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
your help requested: Team Eye and Ear
I'll be going off the topic of Migraines today to raise awareness for another cause close to my heart.
Two of my family members are running the Boston Marathon this spring. They are fundraising for Team Eye and Ear, the charity team for Massachusetts Eye and Ear. So far, they've done an excellent job of raising money toward their goal, but I'm asking all of you dear readers to consider a donation to their team.
Why did they pick Team Eye and Ear? On their fundraising page, they explain:
Please take a minute to check out their fundraising page and consider donating. Even $5 can make a difference!
Thanks, everyone!
More about Massachusetts Eye and Ear Infirmary.
More about the Boston Marathon.
Donate here.
Be well,
MJ
Two of my family members are running the Boston Marathon this spring. They are fundraising for Team Eye and Ear, the charity team for Massachusetts Eye and Ear. So far, they've done an excellent job of raising money toward their goal, but I'm asking all of you dear readers to consider a donation to their team.
Why did they pick Team Eye and Ear? On their fundraising page, they explain:
Monica had sudden vision loss as a teenager caused by a degenerative cornea condition. Her doctor at the time told her she would eventually lose her sight in one eye and would need a cornea transplant. After moving to Massachusetts in 2001, Monica came to Mass. Eye and Ear to get a second opinion and transfer her care to our doctors. Her doctors and the staff at Mass. Eye and Ear gave her hope, telling her that she would not necessarily lose her vision and that there were things she could do to help prevent it. Monica explains, “Going to a world class institution and seeing the doctors who are really aware of and involved with cutting-edge research has made such a difference in the care I’ve received, and I want the opportunity to give back by raising funds to help continue that research.”
Please take a minute to check out their fundraising page and consider donating. Even $5 can make a difference!
Thanks, everyone!
More about Massachusetts Eye and Ear Infirmary.
More about the Boston Marathon.
Donate here.
Be well,
MJ
Sunday, February 8, 2009
courage
I went to see Dr E on Thursday afternoon for a follow-up appointment, and even though there was some confusion (they had canceled my appointment but forgot to call me), Dr E and his PA worked me into the schedule since I was there.
The appointment went very well. We went over the success I've been having with Dr P's regimen. My pain levels are significantly lower than they were a few months ago, and December was actually a very good month. Unfortunately (and I explained this to Dr E) the stress of unemployment has hit me harder in the new year, so I'm back to frequent days where my pain is 5+; I went from 12 such days in December to 27 in January. I know that the stress and anxiety are exacerbating my Migraine pain/symptoms and IBS.
Dr E suggested I add a low dose of Celexa (citalopram) to my regimen to help deal with the anxiety and depression related to the unemployment situation, since the emotional upheaval is having such a negative effect on my head. He specifically suggested Celexa because it has a low side effect profile and has seen success with it in his patients (and few side effects). He remembers well the trouble I've had in the past, so he's starting me on a very low dose. He thinks that the Celexa will probably be a temporary thing to help me get through the unemployment stress, so I may try going off it when the job situation changes.
We also discussed my current triptan, Amerge, which usually works pretty well for me with few side effects, but can take 3 or 3.5 hours to work. I'm keeping that as an option, but he also gave me a scrip to try Axert.
Overall, it was a very good appointment.
I finally picked up my scrips for both drugs yesterday afternoon, but I hadn't quite worked up the courage to try the Celexa last night. Those of you dear readers who have followed my blog for a while may remember that I've had some very strange and severe reactions to meds, most recently Lyrica and even Botox. After my double reaction to the Lyrica and Botox last fall, I told Dr E I wanted a complete break from any prescription preventive meds for a while, which was when he referred me to Dr P. I feel I've made great progress with my new regimen so far, though I still have some way to go.
So tonight, I'm going to try the Celexa. I make it a point not to read the potential side effects on the pharmacy leaflet myself; instead, I read all of the other information and have DBF read about the side effects. This method has worked well for me in the past.
It's still scary, though. These are powerful drugs we take to try to address our Migraines, or, in this case, my anxiety and depression. I can say I would not be as ready to try the Celexa if not for Dr E; without even looking at my chart he remembered the severe reactions I've had in the past. (He once mentioned to me that I redefine medication sensitivity and he would have to be extra cautious in my case.) The headache specialist I saw before Dr E never would have understood this, or have been willing to individually tailor my treatment.
Chronic illness requires a lot of courage: courage to continue on through pain and sickness; courage to try new medications; courage to face the unknown, trial-and-error nature of our treatments. Tonight, I will screw my courage to the sticking-place and try a new drug. Hopefully, it will make a difference in my emotional state and help my head to calm down.
Be well,
MJ
The appointment went very well. We went over the success I've been having with Dr P's regimen. My pain levels are significantly lower than they were a few months ago, and December was actually a very good month. Unfortunately (and I explained this to Dr E) the stress of unemployment has hit me harder in the new year, so I'm back to frequent days where my pain is 5+; I went from 12 such days in December to 27 in January. I know that the stress and anxiety are exacerbating my Migraine pain/symptoms and IBS.
Dr E suggested I add a low dose of Celexa (citalopram) to my regimen to help deal with the anxiety and depression related to the unemployment situation, since the emotional upheaval is having such a negative effect on my head. He specifically suggested Celexa because it has a low side effect profile and has seen success with it in his patients (and few side effects). He remembers well the trouble I've had in the past, so he's starting me on a very low dose. He thinks that the Celexa will probably be a temporary thing to help me get through the unemployment stress, so I may try going off it when the job situation changes.
We also discussed my current triptan, Amerge, which usually works pretty well for me with few side effects, but can take 3 or 3.5 hours to work. I'm keeping that as an option, but he also gave me a scrip to try Axert.
Overall, it was a very good appointment.
I finally picked up my scrips for both drugs yesterday afternoon, but I hadn't quite worked up the courage to try the Celexa last night. Those of you dear readers who have followed my blog for a while may remember that I've had some very strange and severe reactions to meds, most recently Lyrica and even Botox. After my double reaction to the Lyrica and Botox last fall, I told Dr E I wanted a complete break from any prescription preventive meds for a while, which was when he referred me to Dr P. I feel I've made great progress with my new regimen so far, though I still have some way to go.
So tonight, I'm going to try the Celexa. I make it a point not to read the potential side effects on the pharmacy leaflet myself; instead, I read all of the other information and have DBF read about the side effects. This method has worked well for me in the past.
It's still scary, though. These are powerful drugs we take to try to address our Migraines, or, in this case, my anxiety and depression. I can say I would not be as ready to try the Celexa if not for Dr E; without even looking at my chart he remembered the severe reactions I've had in the past. (He once mentioned to me that I redefine medication sensitivity and he would have to be extra cautious in my case.) The headache specialist I saw before Dr E never would have understood this, or have been willing to individually tailor my treatment.
Chronic illness requires a lot of courage: courage to continue on through pain and sickness; courage to try new medications; courage to face the unknown, trial-and-error nature of our treatments. Tonight, I will screw my courage to the sticking-place and try a new drug. Hopefully, it will make a difference in my emotional state and help my head to calm down.
Be well,
MJ
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